Stoptimizing: Creativity, Burnout and Life Beyond Productivity with Maria Bowler

Rise and Grind, Girlbosses! It’s time to GROWTH HACK your way to your BEST SELF and make this the ULTIMATE year. If you don’t have time, you can make time, because excuses are no excuse.

Just kidding! Like so many of us, author Maria Bowler found herself caught up in the Productivity Machine, which demands we do more and more and more for the sake of…what, exactly? For the sake of more, of course! 

Maria’s new book, Making Time: A New Vision for Crafting A Life Beyond Productivity is not a book of tips and tricks and life hacks, but a gentler and more generous approach to how we spend our one precious life. It’s a perfect read for anyone who feels burned out and not “enough” – you can get your copy here and support Maria, small bookstores and this show. 

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Um, how are you? Most of us say fine or good, but obviously, it’s not always fine, and sometimes it’s not even that good. This is a podcast that gives people the space to be honest about how they really feel.

It’s a place to talk about life, the good, the bad, the awkward, the complicated. I’m Nora McInerny and this is Thanks For Asking. Hello, and welcome back to Thanks For Asking, the call-in show about what matters to you.

This episode is a little bit different. It is not a phone call. This is not a call-in, this is a call-out.

This is an interview episode. It’s been a while since we’ve done one of these, but I wanted to make space within this show for conversations with authors of books that I have really enjoyed and books that I think would be relevant or helpful to you.

This conversation is for anybody who feels burned out, which the last time I checked seemed to be pretty much everybody. Modern life is quite exhausting, and I say that as a person who is self-employed and has been self-employed for 10 years.

I am the worst boss that I have ever had.

I look around at my peers, people who are around my age, people who are even a little bit older, people who are a little bit younger, and it feels like everybody is really exhausted, really exhausted trying to keep up with the demands of modern life.

I have found a lot of comfort in the writing and thinking of today’s author, Maria Bowler. Her newish book, still new, still new, came out in January. Her book is called Making Time, A New Vision for Crafting A Life Beyond Productivity.

I read this book very, very quickly, even though it’s not meant to be read quickly, it is really meant to be savored for you to dip in and out of. This is not a self-help book. You will not find a formula in here.

You will not find any hacks, but you will find really thought-provoking ideas. You will find a lot of insights.

You will find inspiration for your own life, whether or not you are a person whose life revolves around creative output or whether or not that is your career field.

I think that the spirit of this book really applies to anybody who is living in the world that we are living in and just feels like they’re not doing enough, they are not enough, and that they should be doing something that it should feel easier,

right? It should feel easier. So enough of me. Let’s get into the conversation with Maria.

Okay, this is starting 10 minutes late, and Maria, my cortisol level at a technological issue that happens truly every single time I record or have recorded for the past eight years was probably at levels that no doctor could have anticipated or

understood. Levels that doctors would marvel at.

That is why this book and all of your work resonates so deeply with me, because being chased by a tiger or a woolly mammoth or whatever is coded into my DNA, is actually manifesting itself in the year 2025 as, oh my gosh, that was 10 minutes that

could have been us making content, doing our work, doing our good jobs, being good girls and getting things done. And I wasted it with whatever happened between the cords and the things. And that’s what we’re gonna talk about today.

I love the segue. That was elegant.

Was it? So Maria, you are not American. And I have to point that out because people, me, tend to believe that Canadians are superior in every conceivable way.

That you are a cut above, not just geographically above us, but above us on like a higher plane of consciousness. The things that we struggle with certainly can’t have infected you, are big sisters from the North.

And yet, your work would suggest otherwise. So I would love to know, prior to being the kind of person who could write this book, about creating a life beyond productivity, what your relationship was to productivity.

Thank you for that, yeah. I mean, I’m curious to hear how it would be articulated in different generations, but for me, being born in the mid-80s, it was definitely the vibe of like, you can do anything, you can be anything.

Like, let’s build up our self-esteem, and therefore, you must do everything. And it’s very, you focused, and possibilities are endless. There was, at least in my corner of suburban Winnipeg, right?

I don’t know that this was the case for everyone, but that was certainly the vibe at that moment in history for my corner of life.

So, I absorbed that, and I, you know, associated my okayness with the honor roll, and if not the honor roll, at least like not failing.

It was just, you know, you can be okay, you can climb a ladder that is totally available in front of you, and it makes sense was the promise of the time.

Like, you can get the, you can go to college, you can get the job, or if you don’t go to college, you can get a different kind of job that will provide you a life, and of course, I tried, and when I succeeded, it didn’t work, and then when it didn’t

work, it didn’t work. As I sort of became an adult, and I was an editor, I sat across people as a coach and spiritual director, I taught undergraduates, and in all of those scenarios, I found that different people were coming to me with the same

version of that problem, which was like, it’s not working. Like, I just can’t make the schedule work. If I just got the right routine down, then it would be okay.

Can you help me get a right routine, or can you tell me how to get my writing life right, depending on the context? But it was the same question, which was like, there’s got to be a secret for what to do.

There’s got to be a cheat code, and once I figure out that cheat code, then everything will make sense. I know this feeling all too well. I always feel like I have one app, notebook, pen, or schedule away from unlocking something.

And in my experience, that kind of mentality has meant that even when, and I was really struck by you saying, when it worked, it didn’t work, and when it didn’t work, it didn’t work. When things have worked for me, right?

Like objectively, if I looked at my life in any sense, personally, professionally, from the eyes of myself 10 years ago or 20 years ago, 15, in the middle of those two numbers. Where as a child, I would say like, you did it. You got it.

You got it. You did it. And also, every accomplishment has been tainted by that mindset of, well, I guess I should be doing more or it should feel differently.

It is basically meant for me that I have metabolized every accomplishment before even tasting it. Nothing feels good or tastes good because it could be something else. It could be better.

What did it feel like and what were those moments for you when it was working and not working?

I remember when I got a job at a magazine in New York City. Coming from Winnipeg, I couldn’t imagine anything more glamorous.

There wasn’t anything more glamorous.

That was for listeners who are any other age group, working at a magazine in New York City was what our generation of women was promised to be the most glamorous, most fulfilling, most, the apex of literally everything. And guess what, Maria?

I never made it, baby. I didn’t make it there. Okay.

I tried. I tried. I was offered an internship, $50 a day for FHM magazine.

For Him magazine, it was like a dirtier version of Maxim. Obviously, I nailed it, because I was like, well, I don’t want to write like an idiot man. And my dad was like, how will you support yourself on $50 a day?

And I was like, may I? And he said no. And I was like, okay, wow.

Okay. But you made it, baby. You made it to magazines.

And I think we do need to take a moment to appreciate that accomplishment. That the aspirational 20-something in me sees the aspirational 20-something in you.

And I was somewhere in Brooklyn, like seething with jealousy while working in public relations and being very bad at it, I should say.

PR was another dream. That’s another dream.

That was another dream. Then I got there and I was like, well, I’m just sitting in a cubicle typing emails?

It’s truly so unglamorous, like taking three subways every day from Brooklyn.

We were walking in the weirdest ballet flats and it’s like that, that could not have been good for our feet. I was like, that was the era of ballet flats too. It was like ballet flats with everything.

Everything. You’re walking eight miles a day, ballet flats.

Yeah, just trying to keep it together in my button up, under the fluorescent lights. Yeah. Getting there and realizing like, yeah, this was the thing that I thought I wanted.

But of course, the way you have to be to get there is the way you have to maintain being there. And so if I hustled to get there, which I did, I didn’t get to coast once I was there. It was just like, oh no, now you’re afraid of losing the thing.

And every goal is like that. When we have this sense that we are just one thing away from being who we really want to be, goals become like threats or like aspirations or ideals become sort of this thing hanging over our head.

And then once we get there, the feeling that we sort of motivated ourselves by, whether it was like the fear of losing out, the fear of not getting there, that doesn’t go away. You just either pick a new goal or you try to like prevent losing it.

So that was certainly my experience and that was a bit of a crisis at that time.

Did you know that it was a crisis? Because at that age of my life, in that era, I truly thought, okay, it’s a crisis because there’s something wrong with me. Like, everyone else has got to be feeling better than this.

Everybody else might have figured it out. It’s me. I’m the problem.

Right.

I did blame myself. I think I realized that I had borrowed a version of success that was only really partial to me.

I remember thinking, I’m like, oh, if this is me at my best and this is what it’s like to show up at me at my best, and there’s a huge… I felt like there was this huge other part of me that was screaming that had no space to be expressed.

The only thing that was valued was sort of a little sliver of reality. And that’s what it felt like. I felt like there was this just giant disconnect.

And I’m like, oh, but I thought that if I could just be like smart enough, sharp enough, like witty enough, that was sort of the currency at that, in that sphere. Then I would feel like okay with myself and fully accepted. And yeah, I didn’t.

Last year, for the first time, and a little bit into this year, I finally started and completed The Artist’s Way.

Yes.

I’ve seen a lot of memes that are like, the true artist’s way is never finishing The Artist’s Way. It took me, I would say I bought and donated that book approximately seven to 10 times.

I would see it at the thrift store, buy it, be like, today I’m going to do it, start the morning pages and then abandon it. When did you discover The Artist’s Way and what did it do for you?

I discovered it in grad school. I was walking in a bookstore with my friend Claire, and she pointed it out and said, my parents did that and really liked it. And I latched on to it like an oasis in the desert.

Like I was obsessed. So I became an evangelist too. Like I was really annoying, like giving copies to my friends.

The morning pages were really, really big for me. I never really connected with the artist states that much. But yeah, it became a place to show up without trying to get anywhere.

That was what the morning pages did for me.

Yeah. Yeah. And that’s to me, that was the hardest part.

Like, and that’s why I always abandoned it, was I was just thinking, I need to do a good job at morning pages. Like I better be discovering something every morning. And it’s like, the point is to literally just write.

You could write anything. And that’s how deep, deeply ingrained, like the good job, like do everything right, do everything perfectly was ingrained in me that I couldn’t even free write three pages without feeling like I was doing it wrong.

That’s real. And I still struggle with that. And I still do morning pages, but they’re kind of not quite morning pages.

And I still find myself trying to make them a problem-solving exercise. And then I stop for a while, and then I come back to it. That’s the thing.

We’re always trying to like fix something.

Yeah, yeah. Always trying to keep, always trying to fix something, always trying to accomplish something. And I loved your writing about dread.

Dread and doing. Will you talk to us about that?

So, there’s a little chapter in the first section about how dread functions for under the, in the land of productivity, which is sort of what I call our culture. And dread is, in the way that I describe it, is a different feeling than fear or panic.

It’s a specific thing, it’s actually a specific way of trying to control against the instability of the world. And it keeps us feeling very busy.

So it’s like, we see it in the doomsday prepper world, which is a very profitable industry that keeps you feeling like, if you just can protect yourself enough, if you can think ahead enough to everything that could go wrong and then prepare against

it, then you will be okay. But then you just keep searching out new problems and it becomes this loop.

What is your dread into doing trigger, personally?

Health. So looking at something that, my aging body or the aging body of the health of my family, and then I immediately go into like, oh, I need to do everything I can to not get some, not to feel worse.

So yeah, like these mean like buying supplements, like trying to think of a new plan, that kind of anticipation, which like actually indicates that like, I don’t trust a future version of myself. Like I need to somehow do it now.

Yeah, yeah. It’s, I do that too.

I have like all these little, I had a friend of mine design these little phrases that I had originally written on Post-It notes, but the Post-Its were falling all over and one says like, let future you figure it out, because like give her something,

give her something to do. Like that’s okay. Like why are you, why exactly, why aren’t you trusting that version of yourself? Like why are you assuming her helplessness?

And probably because I, we have that sense of like helplessness around our present selves in some ways.

Yeah.

There’s kind of an obvious question that I’m sure you have been and will be asked 6,000 times. So let me just be one of the million people to ask you it. How do you produce?

This is the entire point of the book, by the way, guys. How do you produce work that you are proud of without getting stuck in the productivity trap?

Let me think about that.

Personally. Like on a personal level. What are the…

But also, it’s like, guys, that is the point of the book. That’s in the book.

Yeah. Okay. This is going to sound strange.

Yeah.

It can sound a little out there, but one of the distinctions that was revelatory for me was the distinction of feeling like I’m producing something, meaning like it’s coming from some blank space inside me, and I’m like wrenching it out and forming

it, and it’s just me by myself, and I’m like, I’m the engine. I’m the little engine that could pushing, like mixing metaphors, but like I’m pushing myself up this hill. Like that’s the feeling of producing something that I’m quote unquote proud of.

The other alternative is feeling like I am participating in something coming into being. So I am actually not the only thing that is making this thing happen. I am like, I’m getting ideas from like the ether.

I’m just making myself available for this thing. And I did not stay in that second mindset the whole time at all.

In fact, there were moments in writing the book where I was, like I fully was like forcing it so hard that I had to stop and needed help, because I’d never written something of this size before.

Like I just, my capacity for a project of like this length needed to grow. So that was really, really hard. But at my best, I was able to feel like, okay, like I am, I don’t need to force this, this thing is like going to come through me.

And I’m like, I’m just participating. Like, and I found that that if I like tuned my dial that way, that would make it easier.

And then my sense of pride in it felt like a little bit more like humble in a sense, because it’s like, I know that I didn’t scrape this altogether. It’s like, I just kind of helped facilitate it.

Yeah, I’m going to come back to the artist way. I want everybody to know that I did not take my Adderall today, also did not have a cup of coffee today, has been a chaotic day.

And in years or months past, I would truly admonish myself and say, and you did a bad job and you didn’t get it, that, that, that, that, that, that.

But instead, we’re going to take this chaos train, we’re going to pull back into the station called The Artist Way, because I actually do think that this book is a great companion piece to The Artist Way.

And I think that this book is written to be incredibly helpful to anybody, whether or not you are in a creative profession or even just, you know, even if you would not consider yourself like a creative, this book is written in such beautifully sized

pieces and ideas that it can be a balm to anybody who feels burned out or stuck or overwhelmed. What were the practices that kept you grounded, kept you calm because writing a book, right? Is like you said, it’s a huge project.

The world, everybody’s job is filled with huge overwhelming projects. No matter what your career is, there’s something big that is always looming ahead of you. Something that you do have to sit down and produce.

And there’s all these external factors that you have to guard yourself against in a way to keep yourself from totally losing your mind.

Yeah. I tricked myself into writing this book. I told myself that I wasn’t really writing a book, that I was kind of just doing a prank.

So I saw this ad. This ad was served to me on Instagram, and it was like, write your short nonfiction book. And the ad was so cheesy that I was like, that guy can do it.

I could do it. Like that seems like… Like, I could not think of it as literature.

Like, I could not think of it as… No. Right, like, it couldn’t be a capital B book for me.

Like, it was like, no, this is like… It was like a little dare.

Yeah.

And so with that, it looks like…

I have literally told my kids and my friends, I’m like, stupid people do stuff all day, every day. And they don’t think twice. They don’t question themselves.

Pretend you’re stupid. Yeah. You’re stupid.

It doesn’t have to be that serious.

Like, that’s such a huge block, especially like the more… And the more you care about something, the more you often like, hesitate around it, because it becomes really precious. And it becomes this thing that like, really special people do.

And it’s a special world. And that is… It keeps you at a distance from it.

And it keeps you also kind of like on your best behavior. Yeah. If you’re…

Yeah.

And then like, what…

Are you really most yourself? Are you really bringing forth what’s most alive when you’re like on your best behavior? Probably not.

So literally, my practice was to write 500 words by hand in my little corner of the coffee shop and not tell a day. And just like not tell anyone what I was doing. It was like a little joke.

Yeah, that’s how most of it got written.

500 words by hand in a coffee shop, nice and casual, like it doesn’t have to be that serious. I really like that approach.

I really like that approach because I feel like I’ve spent most of my adult career and I’ve had many, many careers in my adult life.

I spent most of it in a panic, like looking for a template or a map or something and just basically saying, like, you tell me how to do it and I will do it that way. That has been my worst work in every industry, is being like, okay.

Same. Same. Because you’re not really showing up when that’s happening.

You’re showing up as this, I don’t know, version of you that you think you should be and your brain, I don’t know. I feel like my brain isn’t ever fully online when I’m imitating what I think so I should be doing. Yeah.

When you are constantly glancing over at how other people do it, and you’ve spoken before, and I hate to be a person who’s quoting your Instagram stories, but here we are.

You’ve spoken before about comparison, and that is an irresistible part of modern life.

It’s irresistible in the sense that we literally can’t resist it because we are constantly fed snippets, visions of other people’s success, and it’s irresistible to me in the sense that it’s like pushing a bruise, to go look at somebody else’s work

Yep, that is very real.

What did I say about comparison? Because I genuinely don’t remember anything.

You were talking about you’re walking through the woods, I believe. You were walking, your lipstick looked great, and you were talking about comparison, basically like sapping your creativity.

And I just felt that so deeply because that has been a huge part of my journey. And also I’ve seen other people feel that about me, and even kind of express it to me. And I’m like, babe, I don’t know what to tell you.

Like nothing is as good as it looks. Nothing. I can be very grateful for this life.

And also like, you know, enjoy yours, like enjoy, enjoy what you have. And like there’s nothing like seeing somebody else’s comparison to sort of free you from yours in my experience.

I love that you bring up both those experiences because that is so true.

I’ve been thinking a lot about how I have the function of comparison for me has actually been to like fill in what would otherwise just be empty space in my life or my head that I am feeling uncomfortable in.

Like I’m a week and a half out from this book being released. It’s a weird nebulous period.

I’m blessing you right now. I’m just sending you all that. It’s the worst.

Right?

Yeah.

And it’s the unknowing that is so uncomfortable. So I’m actually noticing my brain wanting to use comparison to just fill in that space. Like, oh, instead of just being like, I actually have no total control over the book that’s already written.

I have limited control over what I do to share it. And so that’s so intolerable that I’m going to fill in stories about other people. But it’s just like, I could just leave the space there and not fill it.

Yeah.

But your point in that, like, other, like, experiencing other people making up things about you, you realize when people do that, like, oh, they have filled in an entire world about me that does not exist because it does something for them.

Like, and that makes sense. But like, it’s just not it’s just it’s fantasy. It’s not reality.

Okay, I had the most brilliant question, then it literally evaporated from my mind and I watched it float away. And I was like, who did you write this book for? Like, who do you hope picks up this book?

Yeah, I definitely wrote it for people who are suspicious of yet another plan and another self-help book, but who also really long for a life that is really intentional and full of the meaning that they want to express.

So they don’t want to say like, I don’t want anything, I’m just going to sit here and tell myself that I have no desires. I believe that we’re restless creatures because we want to make meaning. We have like, we’re beautiful, creative creatures.

Like we don’t want to just sit there. But the alternative we’re given is like, okay, like use all that energy to like fix what’s wrong with you and like basically use it to make capitalism function and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

And so I have in mind someone who is a version of me, who does not want another five step plan or another like acronym, but deeply wants to experience themselves as a whole creative human who wants to engage deeply in the world.

Like I think we’re meaning making creatures. We want to be in our life in a really alive way, but not in like an optimized, idealized self way.

The optimizing, it’s like we got to stop demise. It’s what I’m saying. We got to stop demise and that’s when that catches on.

The world will be fixed, okay? I am so wary of anything that’s about optimization, efficiency, anything that promises me more. I’ve declared this year the year of less.

I am going to do less. I’m going to say no more. I am going to have more white space in my days and not try to fill it.

I’m going to tell you a story and then I want to know if you have an experience like this.

When you pull back from the productivity trap, my inclination, it is so hard not to let, it’s almost like when you, oh, God, I’m trying to think like I can’t, there’s no metaphors in the world at this point. They’ve all deleted.

But you know when you’re at the beach and you dig out a little space in the sand, and then the water laps back up and all of a sudden it’s filled in, and you dig it again.

That to me is like when I pull something away, when I carve out space, it is hard for the oceans of my productivity monster not to just fill it in. I started playing video games a few years ago. I got myself a Nintendo Switch.

I do not share it with the kids. They have one. I’ve got one.

The games that I gravitated towards, Stardew Valley, it’s a beautiful story game. You can choose your own adventure. The way that I just set up a farm and got to work, it’s like I got to milk these cows.

I got to get more cows. I got to make more money. What?

Step away from that game. I get a game called Lemon Cake, where you arrive at this decrepit old bakery, and it is your job to renovate the bakery. But to do that, you have to make baked goods and sell them.

And I realized four days in to playing this game, this game is simply capitalism, and all I am doing is selling more pastries to fix more ovens so I can bake more pastries and make more money to fix more ovens and grow more ingredients so I can sell

more pastries. And in my free time, my relaxing time, I was stressing out about being productive in a video game. That’s why I was the opposite of relaxing. I filled in my unproductive time trying desperately to be productive in a video game.

It’s amazing.

It’s amazing.

It’s amazing.

We are like, yeah, that adrenaline is addictive. Yes.

Yeah.

No, that’s so real. I get that feeling when I’m supposed to be just hanging out on the weekend with my family. You’re not even supposed to be working.

And I’m like, okay, what can I be doing while we’re watching a family movie? And can I be like… Just sitting there can feel deeply intolerable.

And it becomes, I think, from this partial identity issue that we’re given this identity that we are what we do. And so if we’re not doing anything, then we don’t count. We’re literally nothing.

There’s something we have to constantly fill some imaginary gap that’s been created by someone who isn’t us.

And so I want to wrap this up by talking a little bit about legacy. It’s where you end the book, and it is a really beautiful thought, is a beautiful place. And I get there sometimes, and then I’m like, maybe for other people.

But it’s so hard, and we see so many memes about this, right? Like where people are saying, oh, these are the common thoughts of the dying, right? They’re not worried about work or what they did.

They want to know that they mattered personally, that they did this. I was raised by people who believe deeply in laziness. God bless them.

Mom, if you’re listening to this, I’m not mad at you. Okay, babe, I’m not mad at you. You did a great job.

Dad, wherever you are, like relax, it’s okay. One of my core memories as a child is my, obviously ADHD, anxious grandfather, never sitting down, not once. When I went up to the cabin with him, my cousins and I were commiserating about this recently.

He would give us a wheelbarrow, three little girls, and say, move this pile of bricks. And I’ll take you for ice cream. We’d get done the big, God never said when I’d take you to ice cream.

I got to move this pile of logs from here to here. Just wheelbarrowing constantly. The entire time we’re up at the cabin, we’re moving bricks, we’re moving logs, we’re doing something.

He’s buzzin around. My mom has never sat down in her life. You know, like, it’s just constant.

And I have that too. I have that too. And the way that it affects other people, and not just my kids, because not everyone’s a mom.

And you don’t have to be, by the way. It’s not for everybody. And I say that with the utmost respect.

But it infects everybody. It is a weird, unsettling energy to project into the world. And is that really how we want to be remembered as people who got a lot done?

Right, right.

I think we can feel when people are doing something, and when we’re doing something, from a sense of trying to feel like we’re okay, versus when we’re doing something from a place of knowing we’re already okay.

And if we’re around someone, okay, it reminds me of when you make a friend with someone, and they’re always apologizing for themselves.

And you’re like, oh, you’re making me feel like I need to apologize for myself because you’re apologizing for yourself. Like, you’re actually telegraphing that not just that you’re not okay, but that you’re telling me that I’m also not okay.

So when I think about what we leave for other people, I’m trying to speak against this idea that we need to know exactly how we’re contributing, and we need to know the value of our actions.

Like, okay, but what are people going to talk about when you die? And I get how that can be a helpful orienting question for some people, and it’s not wrong.

But there’s something much more mysterious in the way that we contribute to each other, and it has so much to do with the things we don’t calculate. It’s just so much to do with just the quality of our presence.

We love our friends, and we are impacted by our friends, not because they picked us up from the airport, or because they brought the great snacks. Unless they love making snacks, then we love that they love it. But it’s the quality of their presence.

I think counting our impact, counting our legacy, counting in advance, like, okay, but what will come from this effort that I want to do is going to distract us.

So the way that we’re connected with each other is a lot more mysterious, but also a lot more fruitful.

This conversation is going to impact me and stay with me because of how you are being, not because you asked the perfect question or had the perfect story.

But did I ask the perfect question?

Yeah, you had to. Totally, totally.

But is this the best podcast you’ve ever been on?

Totally.

Thanks so much for joining us here today. That was Maria Bowler, her book, Making Time, A New Vision for Crafting A Life Beyond Productivity is available now wherever you get your books.

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The e-mail is thanks at feelingsand.co, and there’s a link to our booking page if you want to have a live call. That’s also in, you guessed it, the show description. This is an independent podcast by Feelings & Co.

Our team here is me, Marcel Malekibu, and the guys at Extra Sauce who do our video production. This episode is made possible by our supporting producers. These are listeners who support us at the highest level over on Substack.

There’s really just, you know, there’s monthly, there’s annual, and then there’s, you know, super annual, which is being a supporting producer, and one of the perks is you get your name in the credits.

So I would love to thank our supporting producers, Beth Derry, Sarah Garifo, Jennifer McDagle, Sarah David, Mary Beth Berry, Joy Pollock, Crystal, Callie Sakai, Veal Bossy, Lizzie DeVries, Amy Gabrielle, Katie, Rachel Walton, David Binkley, Lisa

Piven, Celia Doucet, Michelle Toms, Val, Nicole Petey, Renee Kepke, Melody Swinford, Jennifer Pavelka, Diane C., Kate Lyon, Stacey Wilson, Larry Lefferts, Car Pan, Joe Theodosopoulos, Caroline Moss, Elise Lunen, Anne Dabrzinski, Amanda, Stacey

DeMoro, Jess Blackwell, Abby Arrows, Crystal Mann, Bonnie Robinson, Lauren Hannah, Shannon Dominguez-Stevens, Kathy Hamm, Erin Gian, Penny Pesta, Inga, Madeline McGrain, Christina, Emily Ferriso, Elizabeth Berkeley, Kiara, Monica, Kaylee, Faye

Barons, Jessica Reed, Kate Bayer-Jean, Courtney McCown, Jeremy Essen, Kim Aff, Lindsay Lund, Jessica LaTexler, Alexis Lane, Stephanie Johnson, Robin Roulard, Jackie Ryder, Jill McDonald, Beth Lippem, Elia Feliz-Millian, Dave Gilmore, Laura Savoy,

Chelsea Siernik, Jen Grimlin, Micah and Anne H. Thank you so much. If you would like to join the ranks of our supporting producers, go over to Substack and I will see you guys again soon. Oh, our theme music. I keep forgetting this.

Our closing theme music, our opening theme music is by Joffrey Lamar Wilson, but our closing theme music is from my son, Q. So I hope you love it. It cost me $100.